emails i can't send

It's times like these, wish I had a time machine So I could see what you did October 13th At 10:15, were you really asleep? Were you lyin' to me and the family? There's no "us" in us when I'm lackin' trust You wanna discuss, ugh, you disgust me Don't make me cuss you out, why'd you let me down? Don't say sorry now And thanks to you, I, I can't love right I get nice guys and villainize them Read their texts like they're havin' sex right now Scared I'll find out that it's true And if I do, then I blame you For every worst that I assume When I'm forty-five, someone calls me their wife And he fucks our lives in one selfish night Don't think I'll find forgiveness as fast as mom did And God, I love you, but you're such a dipshit Please fuckin' fix this 'Cause you were all I looked up to Now I can't even look at you (You too) I mean, as they say in Chicago "He had it comin'"